Whether we like to admit it or not $ <<<< this dollar is very important in our life. It might not be the most important to some people but it is SOMETHING we need in order to survive. I've been working 3 days for the Guinness Stout sampling now, I can say this this job might sound easy but it is one of the Hardest job i've ever worked. The job scope itself is very easy, just pour the Guinness and let people to sample it. But I really can't handle those negative comment that i got from many people. Eg: 'Hey, why not you just follow me to do direct sale? it is better than you POURING BEER here for people' and many more things which i will not mention here. the point i am trying to express is that i really felt bad and disgraced for the past 3 days.... I almost cried today, i felt that why do i have to work this kind of job when there are better jobs but lower pay?
Recently, i argued with my 3rd brother in law again... well, this time it got worst. He actually say it out that i am occupying HIS house and trying to say very nasty words to me. I'm not planning for my future because i am going to start work next year and i PRAY/WISH/ JAMPI/ FORCE/ WILL etc..have to move out ASAP!! i really cant take it anymore staying in this house. I have to plan for my finances for next year January when i am going to start work. Which means that i have to really really save up and no more spending on non-sense.
I know that i am very blessed with sisters that love me, father that gave me money unconditionally.But its time for me to leave this comfort zone when i step into the working world and i have to support myself. Because i am going to leave this cold, empty house which no one actually care and love me(sincerely). I NEED TO HAVE MY OWN STAND i stop them controlling me...
i'm tearing as i am writing this post, but i have to be strong and take the courage to leave my comfort zone and be prepare to face the very cruel world myself. Because Darling will still be in college and might eventually go to UK for the final semester. I guess its better for me to NOT put hope and expect people around me will support me...If there is then i will take it as a bonus from God.
I wish that all of you who read this post can leave a note to support me and let me know that i am not alone.
Thank You from the bottom of my heart.....
Fashion is not something that exists in dresses only. Fashion is in the sky, in the street, fashion has to do with ideas, the way we live, what is happening. Coco Chanel
You dont need to feel bad and work as this sampling job, bcos you earn for yourself and living, you are not wrong. So dont they think that they do direct sales means they are success (one of example), well this is 'drinking' environment, men love to bullshit. Life always have negative and positive, once its negative you can think it positively. Sure you can overcome, God will be your side, stay strong babe. <3.
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